infertility and God leads us to adoption part 1

Hello everyone! I am back! The last post I wrote was last winter! I have been thinking over and over to begin the next chapter in our lives. I thought about writing in a journal.....but then this sounded like a better idea. I am going to take you back to last winter for a bit. The first visit to the infertility doctor was a bit scary. I heart every couple who walks through that door. Its not easy. When we left, we began doing blood testing. I had 47 tubes!!!! drawn which took forever because I have such small veins. And the hubs 1!! after a few weeks and having the dye test to check my tubes. (results normal) we got back into the office to discuss what was causing all these misscarriage's. I (Kendra) was told I had incompetent cervix last June, which caused me to go in early labor at 18wks and delivered a stillborn. I was told at the infertility doc that I had a blood clot,  would just take shots or pills when pregnant. My hubby (justin) has a chromosome abnormalities. The whole time the doc was talking to us in the little room my mind was going right towards adoption! we had talked about it for a while but really didn't know what to do. I don't even know what he was saying....we had tears. I almost felt like walking out. But in the end our next step was to get referred to a genetic counselor in Grand Rapids. Or to discuss to set up another appt. to discuss in vitro fertilization. The rest of the day was a kick in the butt :( we both sat in our living room all night. No T.V. on. We had to really think what we wanted to do. We both want to have a family so bad! as the snowy winter went on...right before Christmas we got info in the mail to set up the genetic appt. Little did we know it would take three months to get in there!!!!!! we where so frustrated! We began to pray. Pray for what seemed like forever just to see another doctor....prayed about adoption. What does God want us to do?