infertility and God leads us to adoption part 2

part 2. There was a  lot I of course  I left out in Part 1.  Last summer after our stillborn we went to meet with Bethany Christian Services. We got information on domestic infant adoption. We put all our folders away in our closet of all places with the teddy bear we got from the hospital in memory from our baby girl last June.  It sat there for the next couple months. We went to one meeting last October and parents shared there stories of there adoption. I remember one couple. Sweet, funny, and I wanted to talk to them afterwards. They talked about there handsome little boy and  did a pig roast fundraiser for there adoption. I thought how neat....  we never talked to them that night. Justin darted right to the door. The next day I found out we where pregnant again! same drill, hcg   levels, blood work, waiting, and then numbers went down AGAIN Lost the precious baby at 6wks. that's when we finally got referred to the infertility doctor. (part 1)time went by, months went by. January of 2015 is when we both said YES TO ADOPTION!!!!!!! We emailed  Bethany Christian Services our info and did paper after paper work, background checks,etc. They where so busy with families wanting to adopt that it took a couple of months to get things rolling. In the mean time we still had our genetic apt. in March. We went to that. Number 1, scared, number 2, driving downtown Grand Rapids isn't at all fun! So I will sum our appointment  up. I wasn't fun. But percent wise of having our own child is a  lot better than we thought. A 54%. But with that is a long process. chances of having more miscarriages, in vitro, being stitched up at 12wks, being on bed rest after that through my whole pregnancy until 36wks. There you have it  just like that we where scared with adoption as well but feel it was best for us! Once again I'm forgetting way to many things out. lots being the ups and downs of infertility. One of the bravest thing we can ever do is trust HIM with our greatest disappointments. It is brave to give HIM your heart when all the pieces have been shattered, but I have learned you have to touch the broken pieces to be made whole again.